Today is the final day I've got to make some decisions about things going on in my life. I'm out of time and the dead-line is here whether I like it or not!
I've realized that I've got to suck it up and move on in a few areas of my life.
I want to homeschool, I like it, it works for us, my son is doing better, even though it is hard and challenging. I realized that I can't do it alone, like I have been, because I will go crazy, which I may already be. ;) No, just kidding! Anyways, I'm at a crossroads and I finally feel like I'm seeing things clearly for once. I've told many people that I'm quitting homeschooling. It isn't the homeschooling that stresses me out per se but the lack of support from my main supporter. And, yesterday morning, as I was stressing over it yet again, I got a nice little wake up call from God. 'Hello, Heather'… He said… 'I'm your #1 supporter, not the this other person, so cut it out and lay all your cares upon me.' So I did.
And now here I am, telling you the other decisions that I made that were easy to make once I did that. I'm going to find a church to go to. I haven’t been in years. And I'm going to keep homeschooling.
But to do that well I'm going to make it easier on myself by not accepting anymore custom orders. I know, bad for business, and I'm trying to suck it up. :) I decided to make the days go better for me then I need to take the custom order stress factor out of the equation. Everything in my shops are ready to ship, which is so much easier on me.
About my shops… I've decided to shut 2 of them down.
Heather's Doll Shop already has it's doors closed. The dolls will be moved to Heather's Custom Sewing as I have time. They will still be for sale since they are ready to ship items.
The Sewing Stash is currently in a going out of business sale. 75% off everything! Use coupon code SOLONG75 at check out. I would appreciate the word being spread around. I would like to get that shop cleared out and the doors closed for good in about 2 weeks.
So that leaves my last 2 main shops which will stay as is. :)
My blog will also probably not get as much attention as it used to since I'm throwing my blog schedule out the window and just letting things go with the flow for right now. If you don't hear from me for awhile, I'm probably knee deep in some school or art project with my boys.
You know how relieved you feel after making big decisions? That's how I feel right now! It's all going to work out!
And in closing I'll leave you with this poem I read this morning...
You are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.
You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.
The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the Master's seal.
No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into his likeness you'd grow.
You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God!
~Russell Kelfer
Good for you! Sometimes you just have to do what you feel is right for you and your family, and sounds like you've done just that!! Will still look forward to your blogs when you have time....and seeing all the great things you sew up!
ReplyDeleteDon't we always feel better when we finally make a hard decision?! And that God of ours...isn't He something?! To reveal to you who your real number one supporter is...Wow! If we aren't pleasing Him, it's all for nothing anyway. I applaud your decisions and hope and pray God will give you His peace about it all. Sometimes we have to say no to self, to actually feel better, because our "self" doesn't always know what's best. Good luck Heather, and we will keep reading whatever you post!
ReplyDeleteNow that you have made your decision, I am sure you feel better. It is hard to give up some things but once on the other side it's not so bad after all. No custom orders--I completely agree!!! That is what stressed me with mine too. Much easier to just sell things that we have time to make when we want and what we want. And try Big Creek in Pleasant Hill!!
ReplyDeleteHeather, While big decisions are very hard, it is comforting to know there is a higher power on your side guiding you. God won't let you fall! Read the poem "Footprints". That one always helps me through difficult decision making. I too am still recovering from a difficult decision. I will blog about it someday, but I have come to agree that it was most certainly the right decision for me and my family! The signs to let that part of my life go were all there but it took me some time to see it. Like me, you too will see this was the Best thing for you and your family, plus you have all of us to cheer you on too :)
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